This shit is real and really crazy
Ever see the movie, “The Oh in Ohio”? The basis if the story is this couple, and the guy knows he is a good lover, because his past partners had orgasms, not just orgasms but vaginal orgasms. Pubococcygeus orgasms.
Definition is : the inferior subdivision of the levator ani that arises from the dorsal surface of the pubis along a line extending from the lower part of the pubic symphysis to the obturator canal, that inserts especially into the coccyx, that acts to help support the pelvic viscera, to draw the lower end of the rectum toward the pubis, and to constrict the rectum and in the female the vagina, and that contains bands of fibers comprising the puborectalis, the levator prostatae in the male, and the pubovaginalis in the female.
Anyways, in this movie, she has never had one. They have been married for years and she has never had an orgasm of any time. When I saw this movie, I had not had one either. It is just a silly comedy but it led me to find the perfect vibrator. But I can not have Pubococcygeus orgasm and this will forever bother me. I have been having sex since 2005 and not once have I had one. It drives me crazy. Everyone tells me not to worry, it is very common. But it is bad enough that my vagina is so tight it rips, my clitoris is tiny and my ovaries don’t work, but on top of it, I can not have a vaginal orgasm. I can in my dreams and it is fucking awesome. I want it to happen so damn bad, and wanting it to happen makes it hard to do anything. If I get to thinking about it, I will obsess and end up not being able to get wet at all. Sometimes while a man is inside me I let it seep in and I think to myself just relax, just relax. Let it happen. But nothing happens. Every single time I have sex, if I want to get off, I have to let the guy finish and then get out my vibrator. And even then, sometimes it just does not happen. I will try and try. But that whole tiny clit thing is a real bitch. A friend, the one I slept with that pointed out the fact that my clit was small, says maybe I need a clitoris pump. But I am too embarrassed to buy one. Dear Santa… oh yeah, Christmas is over. Sadness. The sucky part is, well I feel bad for myself, but I feel even worse for my person. I mean it must break their spirit. And feeling guilty just puts more pressure on myself and that does not help it happen either.